What PRIDE means to me - Part 4

Functional, I love that I am functional.

Perhaps I'm not relaxed or good at simple play time, but I love to be productive. To create a new perspective, a constructive step forward, a spark of inspiration and a detailed finish to bring out the core of any project. My father works hard, very hard. My mother works hard, very hard. Everyone in my family that I can think of works very hard and it pays off in respect, stability and a high level of control over the comings and goings of their life. So it is with me, or it would if I had the focus to stay functional in one area. My interests are broadly interconnected so that I get confused how to compartmentalize them properly to take my hyperproductivity and funnel it so that maximum impact can be levied.

Granted, for maximum impact I'd have to devote myself utterly to one task, but this life is not for me. Certainly I am starting too much with my newer positions as g-Projects PR, Meyer Wells PR intern, BGI Industry Concentration intern, the upcoming role as g-Projects accounting, my new projects of OUT for Sustainability and BGI Duwamish Campus feasibility study and my committees HRC Gala Dinner Planning, Green Devel's sustainable community advocacy, BGI identity transition committee, BGI Spirituality in Business group and helping a bit with other things like the upcoming Lambda Legal garden party and Sustainable Style Foundation event. And I want to work on my book, go to the gym, eat more locally, paint, bike, swim, surf, hike, read, camp, sing, sculpt and date a man I could see myself going the distance with.

My own head spins a bit knowing that in spite of this overcommitment that necessitates a shallow involvement in each, I still have so much to learn and so much I could be doing and yet, I have no idea what I'd get rid of. I love being functional and challenged and the excitement of new adventures. I'm proud to be sincere in my dedication, even if it goes overboard. I trust and already see that things will smooth out, begin to mutually reinforce and lead me into a place where I can take on even more exciting challenges. Functional things like love, social change, neighborhood development and maybe even starting a family of my own.

I have pride in my talent and drive and the growing ability to focus that to changing our world for good.