Calm

Perhaps it is from the hot bath I just took, but I felt this way earlier. Perhaps it is the adjustment to my medication, but I don't think so. Perhaps it is my exciting new title of "Junior Developer," but even that does not wholly explain it. Sailing, a wedding and long conversations may have played a roll, but these have come and gone before. No, this time it is not an external factor. This time it comes from within.

I am calm.

My schedule is overwhelmed and I am far from sane (thank God). I still feel nervous about taking on another $20,000+ loan for school. I am still lonely and tired and hungry for more in life. But I am calm. It is a great and profound sense that everything will be ok in the end and that God really does want the best for me and that life is a beautiful adventure I get to fully join in.