Dignity

Is dignity something one gets a single shot at? What if you have a pattern of dishonoring yourself through bad choices... not exercising, eating poorly, missing golden opportunities and worse.

I've sat inside all day trying to complete a paper, yet with a head full of distractions to where I do not feel much closer. It is particularly sad when I ponder the small thrills I allowed myself today, not one I'm proud of, from nachos to watching cartoon clips on Hulu.

This is not the life I value, hiding from contact in a vain attempt to be productive only to waste the chance be decisive and accomplish all the tasks at hand. I'm not even sure how to spin this sad tale of self disappointment and weakness.